Selling a girlfriend!

It was the most difficult day of my life. I never gave up on anything, but on Feb 6th 2015, the odds were against me. A day when I faltered in making a decision for myself and gave in to the pressures of my long distance relationship with my girlfriend. It all started 7 years ago...

On July 5th 2008, on a bright and sunny morning, I met her in a shop, en route work. She was remotely close to anyone I had met before. I was instantly in love. She made moves to elicit a common interest and the conversation didn't seem to end. The next few minutes were gorgeous. It was also the first time I laid my hands on her. We were in a moment, knew we were building a beautiful episode of romance and togetherness for the next few years to come.

It was the night of July 31st 2009, when the darkness had struck us like a lightning. Everything in our smooth ride turned to chaos with one mistake by me. She was hurt and I was heart broken. She returned to me after a month and things were never the same since. We kept the ball rolling and enjoyed ourselves in most dramatic of situations, but could never really live any moment like we did for most part of our early partnership. The path ahead was revealing itself with every passing turn, unhurried.

Jan 10th 2014, was earmarked in my life to cause the biggest disruption in my life. On the day when everyone was agonizingly close to deciding on their New Year resolutions, I was packing my bags for a new work assignment in the US state of Alaska. I knew the long distance would only convolute our misery.

As expected, when I returned to the shores a year later, there were enough signs from her to mark the reckoning.

The journey we started 7 year ago, finally ceased on Feb 6th 2015, when I sold her to another man who had approached me with his greatest intentions to buy her and promised to take care of her through her pained life.

I was in pain, heart wrenching agony, to have committed the deed, but there was no alternative.
 
To you my beloved ex-girlfriend, there is no moment I don't think of you and there is no place in all the worlds I don't miss you.

Miss you to the moon and back!!!

PS: This article is about my first car (05/Jul/2008 - 06/Feb/2015)! It was referred to as my 'girlfriend' by my friends and family for the amount of money and time I investment in making it look cooler and sportier besides any maintenance hiccups.

Indiaaaaaaaa...India!!

I am an Indian and I have always been Proud of it!! On the 2nd of April 2011, it was justified by a bunch of 15 players and their very strong support staff, by achieving one common dream of 1.21 billions of a cricket frenzy nation - WINNING THE WORLD CUP (2011). No cricket fan can ask for more. The Man himself (SRT) has admitted that there can't be anything bigger in his cricketing life. That is the magnanimity of the achievement!!

This edition of WC was for SRT, by SRT and finally To SRT!! What a fittingly deserved realization it was, for him!! Something that he was denied for 21 years for lack of self belief and commitment from the whole of the team - this one man army has finally lived his moment of utmost glory and passion - a very well compiled and executed act by the team. Proven!! - a team game is never less or more than the team itself.

Kudos to the entire Indian team for getting there to the pinnacle of their cricketing lives and to have absorbed the amount of pressure they were under throughout the tournament, is something else!! A Tribute to the Cricketing God - one and only Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar, it will remain a piece of unforgettable, one of the most emotional and cherished moments of my life - the winning SIX from MSD.

Albeit, I lacked expression to let out the joy and emotion as I was in a not so accommodative environment at work. I can feel it suppressed inside me - all it needs is one burst and the relief would be wonderful (have to wait for that till the time I land in Hyd though). Missed my family and friends :( Love ya all!! Would have been a journey watching with you all.

Jai Hind!!

12 months and going ultra strong!!

After ages of lag, i am finally here composing a post with no freaking idea as to what should be the content. It has been a dreadful last 12 months - shuttling between Hyd and UK. How mad can one get with travelling?? Answer is me. Absolutely nowhere with all the arrivals, destinations, cabin crews, asian veg meals, boradin passes, duty frees, terminals....argghhhh!! A man always lives in denial is a truth i have come to terms with, before wedding or after wedding, albeit. I am trying to get over with a phase of unrealistic reality and unharmonious harmony in my life. Support from anywhere is a welcome!!

A thankful lot of people, pretending to be, are trying in their best ways to tear apart, with their uncanny ways of dealing with a noble and soft human (me :P). Have you ever experienced Slow, zombie, confused, impatient, arrogant, sarcastic, raw and what not...all in one person?? Yes..just one person and to top it all, one year liaison...disgusting, depressing and uninspirational stuff. Working with the oldies is a nightmare come true. Lack of enthusiasm eats up your innovation - end result?? - be an oldie among oldies :D.

Craving for a change i hold on to my varying thoughts not to wander and quietly watch the clock ticking to slowly but surely replace the faith in life and trust in self. Been a lot of story for no good guys..Good time folks!!

Review - Robo/Endhiran - Global with local elements

Robo/Endhiran - was in news for quite a while before the release of the movie for all kinds of reasons...right from the name of the movie registered by SRK to creative differences between SRK and the movie direcotr Shankar..putting besides all the negativity about the delay in making and post production, this is a movie Indian Cinema will be proud for some time to come.

The lethal combo of Thalaiva (Rajni) as protagonist and antogonist and doll Aish (not in terms of looks anymore but in acting skills) as the female lead, megaphone handled by Shankar, who according to me was over rated as a director for his unnecessary VFXs and expensively shot songs, has raised expectations beyond imagination just before the release. But, the hype slowly disappeared and the movie remained for ever in the hearts of the audience and for Shankar, this one was bang on!!

Rajni's introduction in the movie is probably the most underplayed scene in all of his movies and the credit goes to Shankar for not getting carried away with Rajni's image and sticking to the story line. It was well conceived, scripted, executed and expressed. Through out the movie, though i watched it in tamil, which i barely understand, i was hooked to the movie with no other thought in my mind. The last time i watched a movie with such avidness was 'Transformers', way back in 2007.

The movie was magnanimous, fantastic in conception, intimidating in visuals (never before in Indian Cinema) and perfectly told. All said, there are minor flaws in the direction department which can be casually ignored for there will be mistakes as Shankar is also human and to err is human.

Hats off to Rajni for pulling it off with an ease as fluent as water. Kudos to the team of Robo/Endhiran for their creativity, message and bringing a good movie to the audience. Must watch!!

'Happy Dipawali Folks!!'

Rating - 4.25/5

PS: The story is not revealed in the interest to safe guard the enjoyment of watching the movie. It has to be watched and felt in theatres without doubt. 

Seen a gal...

Seen a gal...

Tingling and tangling all her way
she has it her way all day
never a jerk nor a bump
very smooth is the ride along her jump

creative novelty in her smile
spreading joy and cheers on the aisle
has an attitude like a clock
she sure will tick her way to the top

lady beautiful kid playful
she has got energy plentiful
talks like a spring and walks like a stream
as if she is living a dream

it is worth spending zillions for her laughter
as it sparkles more than water
reminding everyone of oyster
like never before never after

Catch up!!

Well, it's been quite a while since i last did some activity on my blog. Reason..travel to Hyderabad, India. I always wondered why can't i find time in Hyd to do all the stuff i do when out of India. It was and still is a mystery. I have been searching for an answer ever since my first business tour outside India and haven't been successful in my pursue, as yet.

Nice...is the feeling that rushes in me when i land back in Hyd, as was the case this time. Had a fantastic tour to South Andhra and North TN in the blazing heat of July..Spent weekends with immense satisfaction and a feeling of content..Had wonderful parties with friends and family...watched almost every movie that released without being partial to the good ones and yes, made new friends. As time went by i felt restless with lotsa things started surrounding me without a point of reference.

Nevertheless, it was good to be back home after a suffocating stint in UK. But, i knew i had to be back in UK and i could not free my self from that haunting thought. I took one step after another as slow as a snail to board the flight from Hyd to Dubai (connecting), preferred to leave the rest part of the journey in the safe hands and abilities of the captain and all credit to him for landing me safely at Dubai and then at Birmingham. You never know with the flights these days eh!! they do a lot while on the ground than in air. Expectedly mine was a bon voyage.

Now that im in UK, i am sniffing the possibility to return to 'mana' Hyderabad in a short time from now. I am gonna celebrate Dussera and Diwali with my family and friends after..hmm...3 yrs i think it is..NICE!! That's just for updates about me...but i am gonna keep this space busy for sometime now..:)

Adios!!

Finally...end of a relay!!

"It's been a hard day's night, i have been working like a dog...i should be sleeping like a log". - Beatles..love these lyrics when tired and out of life.

Enjoy the song - Hard Day's Night!!

Last two weeks have been frantic..heavy duty meetings..new acquaintances..frenzy people..crazy discussions..pointless arguments..endless drives..sleepless nights..to say the least. One of those periods in life where you do not realize what's around you and get carried away by the fast pace of life...no regrets though.

Can't just get over the relay of meetings and overshoot in timings we had over the last 2 weeks. at work. Offshoot discussions, multiple layers of debates, no single mission all contributed to the hectic schedule. The worst part is to play roles in bits and pieces. I ain't no good at that.

When finally done with it, i expressed my relief with a 2 hour sleep. Goodness me, it so relaxed my nerves and mind. Now all set to have a 'Fun-filled Friday'.

During one of these days, i met people with negativity towards life. and ragged behavior, after which i feel more confident with all that i am. I am glad i met them as that ascertains me the value of my life which provides me with such opportunities.

During the same time, I also ventured out to do one of the silliest..adventurous..crazy..'out of nowhere' acts of driving all the way to London just to watch a movie acclaimed by all genres of people..'VEDAM'. The 'out of nowhere' experience is not a result of sheer act but he manner and timing of it. Can't explain everything here..will post the experience sometime soon. All i can say for now is the experience was worth it!!

Now the all so happy part...my travel to Hyd on 21st of June..Yay!! excited!!

And when my travel plan to Hyderabad broke out i was in no position to relish it..But it has sunk in now albeit another travel plan. Packing and stuffing all the incredibles into one case is not an easy job...infact i feel that i should get paid for that too..but no idea who would do the payment to me. 

Even after traveling like rain..i hate packing up my unorganized and randomly placed items into one baggage. It reminds me of 'living life in a suitcase'...believe it or not, i had done it and not without atleast 30 kgs of lugguage with me when i was in the US and Canada last..kept moving from one place to another for every 5 to 7 days..raged to death with packing and shifting i should say.

Nevertheless, 'No pain, No Gain!!' Alrite folks..my next post would be from Hyd, if at all i can buy some time for it, or after i am back in the UK...hopefully with a BANG!! :)

A typical workday...

When everything falls in place around you, the world you live in seems to be heaven..it was one such day i had at work. I woke up to heavy showers of rain only to realize i had to hurry to catch the early morn meeting at work. reached office..got the work going with morning rusty musings. These days it is nothing but meetings all the way..from 830 hrs to 1800 hrs i was trying to 'satisfy' different set of people by attending them and providing info and clarifications on what i presumed was obvious. But as my profession says, irrespective of who it is and what is asked for, oblige with more than worth customer's bucks.

By lunch i had already completed a couple of long meetings and discussions trying to explain nothing more than what i had been doing for the tenure of my stay in UK...at lunch time we, the team, had started cracking 'naansensical' jokes on people around in native language or our own Hindi while gulping stuff through throat. Quick lunch and back to business, customers waiting to allure, with questions though...oooohh!!you bad mind, c'mon after all i ain't into 'rhandi baazi'!! pause..or am i on parallel to it?? wateva...a pretentious smiley on my face with logical (or not so logical) answers to make them feel better with sounds of 'oops!!' here and there as even the product does not turn up to be a support during these times of heavy self betrayal as much as the management,  if something goes wrong.

In the end, closed all discussions on a successful note with a broad smile on the face..this time for real..not because of the success but the relief of being revealed from the torture of explicit feeling of self betrayal and modesty uncalled for. I was swift to pack up for the day and head home for a quick nap..like ever ended being a 3 hour sleep..all in all, it was a smooth and neat stroll in the park and good display of wits to keep the attention of the audience. At last 'I' also am satisfied!! YAAY!! not a bad thing once in a while..required at the fag end of every hectic day.

Referring to the very first line of the post..everything had fallen in place and i had fallen with it..'in line' with it..."no confusion only great combination!!" ;)..now doesn't that make a place for heaven?? or may be not...

I opine that if everything around you is just perfect, then something in you ain't right..coz 'NOTHING can be PERFECT' neither mother Nature nor Sachin Tendulkar!!' I now stand corrected "When everything falls in place around you, you fall with it, and then the world you live in seems to be heaven".

B'days are expensive!!

You expense not just another year in your life but also sometimes shell out bucks enuf to call it an 'Expensive B'day'.

One such B'day was my latest (2010). Hope you guys remember the date.


The feeling of having most of my close allies with was really special. As usual, i was late to the venue, Water Front, making my entrance embarrassing for me however 'star'(r)ing for onlookers. Had blessings and wishes flying in the air accompanied by warm hugs and arms arounds. Thank you guys for making the night special by being there, especially after the kinda party we had one night before.


Waited for close to 3 quarters of an hour to find a table (again embarrassed myself by not booking the table in advance), folks with cameras pounced on the opportunity to put their disastrous creative talents to use by clicking random pics and the waiting time flew by like a jiffy (samples provided). Flip side, delay put some guests in discomfort on timelines.


People who have been to W't'F (Water Front..i don't read between the letters :P) will concur with me that the service is anything but satisfying. Cliched, but service could be better, atleast with the time taken from order to serve. Had food and drinks served, at last..and gulping it down dint take much time for the group that was.


Slowly the group started to shrink in size as people started to disperse in different directions to head back home in different paiyyas..i was with the last set of people who were dependant on me to drop them at their destinations. How stupid of them knowing me..i mean what were they even thinking?? huh!! but i guess they know me real well...


Then came the SHOCKER..the check..a whopping amount which blew me off my feet (literally) and off my drinks, for sure. Until that point, i had not bothered about the rate on the menu card. But the moment of truth, which it was, made me read the menu card once, twice , thrice and also enquire on a few things, with one of the remained stewards in the restaurant, which may have sounded idiotic to him. By then, i was back to my normal life. Had no choice but to pay the 'check' amount with 'credit card' (of course mine!!); what a ridicule in life!!


I spent the rest of night making sure that the entire situation dint get into my head and heart. Had i allowed that, the set of people with me would have lost control on their senses...as i was behind the steering wheel of my car...hahahaha!! 'All is well that ends well'.


Albeit expensive till date, was place beautiful, guests lovely, night special and unforgettable...Had a blast!!


Now that's wat i call a B'day to remember. Every single moment was worth it!! Really WORTH IT!!

It can happen to anyone!!

and i am no exception...

Day started on a dull note with a team huddle first up as usual..but ended up as a meeting with twists turns, ups lows, discussions arguments and finally got to my desk to setup laptop with a 'morning namaste' (routine and mandatory bend to reach for the adapter plug in).

As habituated as i am, logged into gmail, bad at work and injurious to job though..then checked my emails..this time official and sat back thinking about all the work i had to finish during the day and realized there was too much for a soul lacking day. But deadlines forced me to start stuff that was expected of me. 10 mins down realized deftly that it was not day but me that lacked enthu...so tried different stuff like reading through news, sports, movies,etc..etc.. for the kick to creep in, but nothing helped me. I continued to work continually, thanks to multi tasking, finished a task JIT but was tired trying to find a grin on my face. That was when something flashed in orange on my laptop screen.

It was a message from one of my very close allies about movie 'SHREK'. Loved the way he expressed his disgust of not finding company to watch that animation movie. That chat triggered brightness in my day.

Indulged myself in performing the other dry tasks pending to be closed when met another friend of mine online and this bit had actually, in true sense, raised my spirit to a level where i put everything i was doing on hold and engrossed myself in the conversation with a deep dive. By the end of working day i was happy for i had a check mark against each of the tasks on To-Do list whilst concurrently the enthusiasm and excitement levels were shooting over the top.

I called it a day when i realized that my state of mind was in no way better useful than it was in the morning except that they were 180 deg apart and at an unbeatable radius from what i would have liked.

A day with mixed feelings . As i write this post, i feel content as i had more than required of both the worlds.

On one side, if 'how many of us?' get to experience such a day is a query, then reserve it for later coz on the flip side, 'how often??' in a week is a bigger question. If the answer is almost everyday, then my recommendation is to find a counsellor (expensive might help!!), twice is an average. Above average - buy time to find what is missing in life. Folks below average are doing fantastically great for themselves.

Oh, I should not leave my answer to guesses. I fall under below average category which means i am doing great for myself...AWESOME!!

On this note, i bid adieu and wish you guys a rockin weekend!! Let yourself loose....not a bad name for a pub!!..hmmm!!